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    Walking on Water | personal



    Let me start this blog by saying this is a personal revelation from the Lord. It is not based on historical accuracy or me interpreting Scripture, rather letting you in on how God spoke to me about faith, moving mountains, and a mission.

    Recently I read Mark 11:22-23, and was told that no one in history has EVER seen a mountain move. So what you’re saying is that Jesus was telling us all that we don’t have faith even the size of a mustard seed? You’re telling me that we’re all full of doubt and unbelief so as to not see such impossible things happen?  I thought we were going to do greater things?!?!

    Faith…a mysterious word that we all desire & long to have. “Faith is being sure of the things we hope for and know that something is real even if we do not see it.” Faith is substance of things hoped for. It is evidence of things not seen. “We walk by faith, not by sight.”

    We walk on water…the translucent unseen realm that the world (gravity) says is impossible. 

    Then a previous revelation I had a few nights before, came to me. The faith chapter…Hebrews 11. By faith…we understand…By faith…he brought a sacrifice…By faith…he skipped death.

    I began to read each verse replacing the word “faith” with “God”…By God…we understand…By God…he brought a sacrifice…By God…he skipped death.

    He is the mustard seed!

    “Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds.” John 12:24

    When we lack faith, we lack God’s Spirit. It’s no longer about how much faith do I have, leaving it all on me and what I can do to gain or work for it, but relying on if am I filled by the Holy Spirit. Do I have enough of Him in my life?  He is the evidence. He is real even if we don’t see Him. He is the substance of what we hope for. He is what we walk by.  

    For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith. 1 John 5:4 >>Jesus said, “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

    ‘Without Jesus it is impossible to please God.’

    Now lets get to the overly exciting craziness of this blog! So Jesus, is the mustard seed of faith that is vital to move mountains but clearly He wasn’t speaking literally. I asked Him, “so what mountain are you speaking of?” “I’m talking about Mount Zion, the mountain of heaven, and whoever has the faith of a mustard seed (Me), can say to that mountain move from here (heaven) to there (earth)  and it will move.” Jesus was all about letting heaven come to earth and He longs for us to do the same!

    So, I heard the voice of the Lord…but I needed confirmation via the Word of the Lord. The next day my Bible reading plan actually skipped back a few days (and I didn’t even notice). There it was, in Hebrews 12: 18-19 “For you have not come as did the Israelites in the wilderness to a material mountain that can be touched, a mountain that is ablaze with fire, and to gloom and darkness and a raging storm, and to the blast of a trumpet and a voice whose words make the listeners beg that nothing more be said to them. But rather, you have come to Mount Zion, even to the city of the living God, the heavenly Jerusalem, and to countless multitudes of angels in festal gathering.”

    Our Father, who is in heaven

    Hallowed be Your name

    Your kingdom come, Your will be done

    On earth as it is in heaven.

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    Ahhhhhhhhhh! This is good! My mom and grandma and I were just talking about this yesterday and they were feeling bad for not having even a mustard seed of faith.

    I could hear your voice saying the words as I read. Love you!

    it is well | personal


    In theory, it sounded like a great idea…a bike ride to my high school teacher’s meeting only 2.4 miles away. It’ll be glorious! I had just gotten over a cold which put me down & out of the gym for a week. Keep in mind, I had only been going once a week, anyways. I slipped in my head phones, and pedaled off only to meet the first hill of difficulty. The first was the worst and I wondered if I should turn around while still in the neighborhood. My legs were like noodles as I turned onto the side of the road. I had to use my whole body just to keep my legs going. This beach cruiser of mine looks adorable but without gears, that’s about all it’s good for.

    Then, the wind hit me like a slap in the face. A sweet push behind the back would’ve been nice but it came flexing against me like a wall holding me back from keeping steady pace.My mind ran a million negative thoughts all at once:

    Why did I think this was a good idea?/ This was perhaps the worst idea ever. / Even the wind is against me!/ I’m so out of shape. / This is too hard.

    With each perplexing thought, God chimed back quickly at each one pulling the relation to marriage as “It is well” came on my iPod. “This was a great idea! Are you going to give up so quickly? Are you going to let the adversity and trial push you to give up and fear? You can do anything with Me.”

    I considered His opposite perspective and began to dwell on His comments. Like marriage, huh. Sounds like an amazing idea. Marriage? I was born to be a wife! It’s only committing the rest of your life to someone. Sign me up! Then the first hill comes and you’re wondering if you can make it up. Your loss of energy hits and you begin to look inwardly. Self focus never wins and certainly doesn’t produce anything but rotten “woe is me” fruit.

    Then the song chimed, “It is well, with my soul.” Is it well? Is it only well when the wind is on my side? Is it only well when it’s easy? Or will it be well right now, when everything feels wrong and discomforted? Then the words came, “So let go my soul & trust in Him, the wind & waves still know His name.” Yes Lord, it is well.

    The breeze hit me with a cooling chill in the heat of the sun as if the Lord’s AC had been turned on. I stopped turning my wheels and let the hill glide me down. It does get easier! Rest comes when you don’t forfeit the trial. I arrived sweaty and told of my journey to my fellow teachers because they saw me on their way in their air-conditioned cars. “Oh, well I’m sure someone can take you home from here.”

    In addition to all the pain at stake that could be avoided and my own excuses, I didn’t need someone else giving me a way out. It’s usually during those hard times that the world gives you the easy way out. In my eyes, the way out was taking the long route & I am so joyful I did.

    I laughed as a barking dog who had the energy level of…well, a dog, chased me with sprints back and forth down the fence line. Then an orange butterfly, the same size & color as the one I wore in my hair on my wedding day flew right before my face almost giving me a “butterfly kiss”. Pedaling on, I came across these beautiful flowers that looked like purple dyed dandelions. I wanted to pick one so bad to keepsake this crazy experience but out of respect for God’s creation, I left it be as a memory in my mind. I was at the last light before home and a truck with my favorite number passed by with a white horse on the trailer. It locked eyes with me, which felt like forever. I couldn’t help but feel as if it was Jesus Himself, saying at the end of my journey, “Well done, my good & faithful servant!” I oozed with excitement and endurance for the hill down home as the breeze rushed against my cheeks…this time with favor. It wasn’t until 1 day later, I noticed that same purple flower stood alone in my front yard, tall & proud as if God had planted it just for me.

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    Payton | New Braunfels

    Payton showed up to our “Young Adult Fellowship” group at church as cute as a button. We immediately connected and began to build bricks of deep friendship. She was with us for a season but she’ll be a friend for life as she is working at a Prayer House in Fort Worth.

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